long ago and far away. My 1st wife / soulmate died of cancer a couple of weeks after her 33rd birthday.
I too signed a "do not resuscitate" order.
WORST F*#%ing day of my life.
After a while I came up with this.
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The death of a loved one is like sea glass.
At first it is bright and you can't take your mind off it, but it is sharp with jagged edges
and when you try to grasp it, it cuts deep and is too painful to be around.
But slowly, the edges becomes rounded,
the color muted and it becomes easier to hold.
Over
time, the sharpness and pain fade and you are left with something
pleasing to think about and smile.